I’ve woken up every morning for the past month with gripping fear.
Like, the kind that momentarily paralyzes you. I pull the covers up to my chin and stare at the ceiling, mind racing. By the time I’m going through my fear routine, my wife has been gone for an hour or so working out. She’s a morning person. I lay there for a moment letting the panic subside before throwing myself out of bed.
This usually happens around 6am.
Fast forward 16 hours and I’m usually on a high, feeling like I could bust through the wall Kool-Aid man style. Momentum is in full swing and I feel like I could take over the world. I’m full of energy with no desire to sleep, especially because I know what I’ll face the next morning.
This usually happens around 8pm.
Why the mood swings? Because I’m leaving my job.
As of June 15th, 2015, I’ll be unemployed. That’s right. I’m leaving a job I’ve worked my whole career to get.
I love what I do every day and get paid really well to do it. I love the people I work with and the organization I do it for. In my book, Reset, I coach people how to go from a soul-sucking job, like my first few jobs, to a rewarding and authentic job, like my current gig.
And yet, I’m leaving.
Sometimes I think I’ve lost my mind, but more often than not I feel a sense of peace and hope and a serious drive to go make something happen.
The fact is that for the past 6 years I knew this day would come. I’ve known since 2009 that I wanted to build a business helping people love what they do every day. My wife has been cheering me along, encouraging me to build it, never afraid that it would fall flat. There’s a lesson to be learned here: sometimes the people around us see things in us that we don’t see in ourselves. Listen to them. They are smarter than us.
The fact is that fear and self-doubt have held me back. And, interestingly, I landed in a job that was just close enough to what I’ve always wanted to do that it satiated the desire for some time.
But, alas, my inner self can’t be denied. I’m drawn to another work. I’m still not sure what that is, exactly, but I’m figuring it out quickly. I’ll be doing two things and seeing where they go:
1. Helping people figure out what to do with their lives and do it. (Career)
2. Training leaders how to lead. (Leadership)
What’s the common thread? Authenticity. And loving your work.
In short, I’m taking my own advice from my book. I’m betting on myself. I’m resetting and seeing if I can add value to the marketplace.
Entrepreneurship is a scary and sometimes lonely but exhilarating thing. And you really never can do it alone. It takes a tribe.
So here’s to finding my tribe and serving them with all I’ve got.
Let’s do this.
Hi! I'm Dustin.
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